Being on a Diet ... thoughts

Being on a diet, regardless if it is a healthy life change, or just trying to lose the pounds, is never easy. I know ... I struggle with it everyday. And everyday I have to decided what I want to eat, and all those decisions can wear a person out. It was a busy week at work - with an all day seminar to finish up the week. When I weighed in this week I lost another few pounds - so my total is now 35 total pounds lost. I have started to feel it in my clothes. Not a lot mind you - but enough to know that I have lost some. Just enough weight lost to get me in trouble -- I want to say to myself ... you have been good why not eat ___ ... or goodness that is a lot of weight lets celebrate by eating ___ ... but these ideas will just get me in trouble. I must keep myself focused on the fact that I need to keep losing - stay away from those thoughts that I am doing great by not eat that second portion ... no, no, I must stay away from those thoughts. I must stay on track - I must tell myself that this is just the beginning.

I do have some thoughts about what people say - or rather, what women say - about others who lose weight. I hate it when my friend says to another, hey M just lost 35 pounds, don't you think that is a ton of weight? (I sit there and think to myself, A TON - no, no, just 35 pounds - what does she mean by saying A TON. I want to yell at her and say, wait you are my friend, don't say anything about my weight - no, not a thing) now if they say, hey look as if you have lost some weight, let me say, thank you (and nothing else!). Oh, well ... I have decided to just not tell anyone - my total weight loss - maybe what I lost that week - but stay away from the total number - maybe that will help. We will see ...

The all day seminar turned out very nicely - the speaker was great - and I had it catered by a local person. A nacho bar with made to order quesadillas - and when it was over the caterer gave me all the leftovers - WHAT ... so I took home a number of things that we do not need to be eating. So I gave a lot of it away to my neighbor who has several young children and they could use the items. Thank goodness. But I did keep the nicely favored chicken and beef - I will use those items with my salads and may throw it into some soup.

My son has a real sweet girlfriend and she will be here for the week of spring break - I am looking forward to it. I would like to take her to a tea room for lunch one day so that will be fun. I am gathering a few things to mail her - sorta of a thinking of you package. We will see what I can come up with - for a college student it is sorta hard - but I would like for it to be girly so I will give it some serious thought. This should be fun.