Can't believe I'm doing this

Can't believe that I am teaching myself how to blog. It has taken me about a week to get it started but now I am ready. I feel that it is like talking with myself. It that crazy? And I'm not so sure that anyone will be reading it but a few select people. But that is not stopping me. I will go forward.

I joined WW in September in the hopes to lose some weight and get healthier. It is being held at my work so their is no excuse for me not going to a meeting. The weather can't be too cold, too hot, I can't be too busy, too tired to get up for the early meeting or I can't be too tired to stop at a meeting on my way home. No excuses - none. So I joined and, I admit, I was a bit nervous at first, after all these are my peers that are looking at me every week. But I do have a co-worker that I know quite well that also joined so that was nice. Actually I know most of those that joined but they don't work in my area/building so even thou I know them I don't see them but from time to time.

And now here it is Jan. 4 (my sister's birthday!!) and I have lost 29.6 pounds. I am so excited. I am doing so well. Now during the holidays it was tough - I held my own - No gains but not too much of a lose either but that was OK. In the past I'm sure that I would have gained and thought nothing about it. But I was so picky what I ate and most importantly how much I ate. I still think that portion control may be the true secret to losing weight. But here I am starting the new year 29.6 pounds lighter - I can't believe that my clothes have just started to feel loose on me. Now don't get too excited - just loose - not baggy - but I will take loose anytime.

In the last few weeks I have been having a fear of loose skin. I have read that when you loose a lot of weight (I need to lose 100+ pounds) that you will have a lot of loose skin. I'm not so sure what scares me the most - being heavy all my life or baggy skin. So.... I am starting to exercise - just what I hate to do. Just the thought of even exercising has me gritting my teeth. Not a pretty picture. But ... my friend encouraged me to go to an exercise class with her. So we went to a Zumba class. I knew that it was a dance with Latin music ... so I thought to myself - that sounds easy maybe, just maybe, I could do that. Are you kidding ... after about 12 minutes I was pooped. When we first got to class (again just a few blocks from where I live so no excuses for not going) the instructor said that if we got lost within the dance just keep moving - what!!! are you kidding ... keep moving - I was sweating after the first 12 minutes ... but I kept my feet moving. I could only handle 35 minutes of Zumba before I gave in - I slipped out quietly. But I have since gone back three times and each time I am able to handle a bit more - maybe my body will be OK after all. It has made me a bit sore but not too bad at all. But I did not go 3 times in a row - there was 3 or 4 days in between times. If my Baptist sisters could see me now!!